A Little Better

For some reason I’m feeling better than I was. There are a few reasons.

One, I have been told by the person in question that just because I’m “serious,” doesn’t mean I’m “humorless.” That makes me feel somewhat better, because if it were the case that I were no fun to be around, that would kind of suck for me.

Two, he’s also told me (I’m paraphrasing) that I shouldn’t take it too much to heart that I don’t click with him. And I’ve realized that it’s much healthier not to focus on what other people think of you. You have to be who you are. If you just be yourself long enough, someone will come along who likes that self. Part of me already knew all of this, but it’s easy to forget those things. We’ve got to learn to be happy.

Three, I just read through the last several days of East/West. Flip, I’m sorry that things with Beau didn’t quite go according to plan. And, not to piggyback on someone’s misfortune, but reading your recent entries reminds me that there’s nothing wrong with honest, raw blogging. It also makes me realize that I’m not the only person with doubts in the world. And the e-mail my friend sent me the other day still applies.

Four, I talked on the phone with my landlord — I’m also going to send him a letter documenting my recent noise troubles, because it’s always best for these things to be in writing. My landlord told me he’ll talk to the neighbors and he’ll send them something in writing about their excessive noise. He told me that if the problem continues, the neighbors will have to leave, because he can’t have tenants disturbing other tenants. (Residential real estate leases have an implied warranty of quiet enjoyment.) Anyway, I’ve always been polite and friendly to my landlord, and he seems to like me. Plus I’ve lived in the building two months longer than these other people. So things could work out okay. The apartment noise sucks; when you can’t even get a good night’s sleep in your own home, that’s a problem.

Anyway, things could be looking up.

Now, there’s a separate issue, which I’ll leave to a separate entry.