Crossfire

Crossfire

I had a date last night.

This guy replied to my personal ad a couple of weeks ago. He was the first person to respond to my ad in a couple of months, if not longer. His pictures didn’t look that great, but he seemed intelligent and intriguing and he was Jewish, and those are all pluses with me.

We e-mailed and instant-messaged and set up a meeting. Twice he had to postpone it: the first time it was because he’d partied too much the night before, and the second time, I don’t know why. I was ready to throw in the towel, thinking to myself that if this guy breaks two dates in a row, I don’t know if he’s someone I want to meet. But I figured, what the hell. So last night we met up for drinks. He was going to meet a friend for dinner afterwards, so we had about an hour.

He was much more attractive than his photos made him appear. He’s got some of my favorite characteristics: short, dark-haired, Jewish. He’s only an inch taller than me, and he was wearing glasses and has a nicely-developed body. He’s 22. Physically I felt an electrical charge, which has never happened to me on a personal-ad-inspired date before. It was exciting.

There are some drawbacks. He smokes (after we left the bar he pulled out a cigarette). He makes a lot of money and works in the corporate world (for one of those big financial firms). He seems pretty outgoing and outspoken and forthright and kinda backslappy.

I dislike cigarette smoke, I make little money and don’t really see myself as a corporate type, and I’m softspoken and hesitant. He’s very Type A. Type-A people get to me.

There was something really exciting, though — and this may sound strange — but it was his politics. He describes himself as a conservative/libertarian along the lines of William F. Buckley. He’s done lots of reading and has tried to eliminate all inconsistencies in his political thinking. So he’s against the death penalty, and he thinks abortion is murder. Low taxes are a given. He supports the free market and dislikes the idea of subsidies of any kind. And he’s against rent control. He thinks the Constitution should be strictly interpreted. (For myriad reasons, which I learned in law school, that’s pretty much impossible today.) He thinks that practically every law Congress makes is unconstitutional. He thinks the federal government should stay out of everything except national defense and maintaining highways.

I asked him what he thinks of the religious right, and thankfully he doesn’t agree with them at all. He says they’re not actually conservative. They want the government to stick its nose into all our business, and a true conservative wants the government to stay out of all our business.

My immediate thought upon hearing that he was a conservative was, “Oh, jeez… what a loon.” How could he be gay… and Jewish… and yet conservative? But it turned out to be incredibly stimulating and enlightening. He gave me lots to think about.

I’m not the flaming liberal you might think I am. When I exit the realm of identity politics, things get kinda wishy-washy. I’m less ideological and more pragmatic. But whether based on ideology or pragmatism, I do believe certain things, and I find Alex P. Keaton’s beliefs here to be overly ideological and kind of heartless.

Oh, can you see it? We could be like James Carville and Mary Matalin. Like Nick and Nora. We could exchange sharp and witty repartée and then roll around in the sack. Ooooh… I bet political disagreements make for very hot sex.

On the other hand… his personality. He seems to have a sarcastic and cynical streak, and I’m more understanding and sensitive. He’s corporate and I’m more touchy-feely. And then there’s the money — I can’t afford the same social experiences he can, restaurants and so forth. And I’m kind of directionless right now, while he seems to know what he wants and to go after it. I felt kind of spineless next to him.

He doesn’t seem to know any of this about me yet. He really seemed to like me, and he wants to get together again. He’s going on vacation to Prague next week and he said he’d send me postcards if I gave him my address. I suggested we can see a movie when he gets back, and he’s already thinking about what movies to see. This morning we sent each other simultaneous e-mails saying that we enjoyed last night. He wrote in part:

Good meeting you yesterday. Smooth chatter is always wonderful. Y’know those situations where both people bark awkward contrived remarks? This wasn’t one of them (as far as I can tell ;)

So, I’ve written all this, and I know that someone will tell me to relax and not think about it too much and just go with the flow. It will probably be Sparky, and he’ll be right. I know, I know… but I’m me, and this is what I do. And I have to blog, after all.

5 thoughts on “Crossfire

  1. Oh god, I’m becoming THAT GUY, aren’t I? You know, the one who never actually goes out on any dates of his own but can always be counted on for level-headed advice for the lovelorn anyway.

    Shoot me. Please.

  2. What a nice post to read. I *love* it when I can talk to someone without the “awkward contrived remarks”. Even if that person doesn’t share the same views and opinions as your own. Isn’t that better anyway? (As you’ve probably discovered.) From what you’ve written, it sounds promising.

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