The Primaries

Next year, for the first time, I’ll be voting in a presidential primary. In 2000 and 2004, I was a New Jersey resident, and the state’s primary wasn’t until June, so there was no point. But the 2008 New York primary is going to be on Super-Duper Tuesday, so my vote will finally matter.

Knowing that I’d finally have a chance to vote in a primary that mattered, I finally registered as a Democrat over the summer. In the past, I was reluctant to do so because I prided myself on my independence. But I realized that I’ve never voted for a single Republican in my life (except for Mike Bloomberg in 2005, which barely counts, and he’s not even a Republican anymore), so I figured it was time to finally declare — especially if I could vote in an election that mattered.

Therefore, for the first time, my decision on whom to support for the Democratic nomination will not be merely theoretical.

I’ve taken several online quizzes that purport to match you to the candidate who holds positions closest to your own (this is one of the slickest; here are two others), and my closest match keeps coming up as Dennis Kucinich. But there are other factors to consider, such as a president’s political savvy and his ability to get legislation passed. If I thought Kucinich had either of those, or if I thought he had even a wisp of a chance in a general election, I might vote for him. But he doesn’t and I won’t.

The choice really comes down to Clinton vs. Obama vs. Edwards.

Clinton is the best prepared candidate in the race. My concerns are that (1) she represents business as usual, and (2) there’s a whole Republican attack machine ready for her candidacy.

The Republicans seem to relish the thought of running against Hillary. On the other hand, paradoxically, her campaign seems like the one most ready to fight back against the Republicans. So it really comes down to this question: when you pit the Republicans’ powerful anti-Hillary fervor against Team Hillary’s powerful campaign skills, which wins? I’m not sure.

The main alternative to her is Obama, for whom Andrew Sullivan and Frank Rich both make convincing arguments. He could possibly transcend the culture-war arguments, and the Republicans might have a tough time in a campaign against him. On the other hand, does he have the political savvy necessary to get an agenda through Congress and to handle foreign policy? Maybe.

What makes me most skeptical about Obama is that he seems clueless about something like Social Security. Paul Krugman, whose opinion I respect, says that Obama has been played for a sucker on that issue. If that’s true, it lowers my confidence in him.

Still, I’ve been leaning more toward him lately instead of Clinton. We’ll see.

As for Edwards, he’s in the mix for me only because I’m not totally satisfied with either Clinton or Obama. I liked Edwards a lot back in 2004, and I like him a lot now. He seems like a true economic liberal. I’m just not sure he’s the right man for the times.

Whoever I pick, it’ll be nice to know that my primary vote next year will finally count for something.

Zachary Quinto

We saw August: Osage County this afternoon. Excellent play — the best acting on a Broadway stage this year. Numerous Tony nominations are assured.

During the first intermission (there are two), I wandered downstairs from the balcony, and I saw one of my heartthrobs: Zachary Quinto of “Heroes.” He was standing behind the last row of the orchestra, talking with a companion. I nonchalantly sauntered past them and then walked back to make sure it was him. It was. He was wearing a black-and-red striped sweater, a pair of jeans, and chunky black-framed glasses.

I can’t tell you how much my heart pitter-pattered.

During the second intermission I went back downstairs and I saw him again.

I am soooooo in love with him. I have been ever since he played Tori Spelling’s gay Iranian best friend on “So NoTORIous.”

*collapses into puddle*

Tin Man

Given the name of this blog, I’d be remiss if I didn’t point out this miniseries, which starts on the Sci Fi channel on Sunday night.

And no, it’s not a miniseries about me. It’s about the other Tin Man. I think.

We’re TiVoing it.

Rudy the Liar

Two influential New York newspapers have front-page stories this morning about how Rudy Giuliani lies. One of them is a tabloid, so the story is splashed across the cover and will influence the masses:

Rudy Lies

Arguably more important, the New York Times has this on its front page: Citing Statistics, Giuliani Misses Time and Again. The article points to several statements Giuliani has made and says, “All of these statements are incomplete, exaggerated or just plain wrong.”

Does this mean a meme is finally taking root that it’s a Republican candidate who exaggerates?

It’s seeming less and less likely to me that Giuliani will be the Republican nominee (but what the hell do I know – I predicted a couple of months ago on Mike’s blog that it would be Fred Thompson). So these stories might be coming just a bit too early.

Still, after Gore and Kerry got raked over the coals for alleged lying and exaggerations, it’s nice to see the shoe on the other foot for once.

(Ooh, two metaphors in one sentence. Always wear shoes when walking over coals, I guess.)

Immigration

How and when did illegal immigration became such a hot topic in this country? I don’t remember anyone even talking about this in the presidential election four years ago. There have long been parts of the nation where it was a big issue, but somehow in the past two years it became this pressing national controversy that masses of people are worried about.

Wikipedia, as usual, provides some enlightenment here.

I guess it doesn’t help that there’s a wide-open Republican primary full of candidates trying to pander to extremists on this issue — people who seem to care less about illegal immigration and more about being overrun by dark-skinned people in general.

As for me, I can’t get myself to worry much about it. I chalk it up to having spent my high school years overseas. Living in Japan for three years permanently changed my perspective on America’s relationship to the rest of the world. I don’t think this country is better than any other country. It’s better in some ways, worse in others. (Many others, yes, but just as we’re not angels, we’re not Satan either.)

More important than our individual national identities are our identities as citizens of the world. Our common humanity is more important than any national allegiance.

There are swaths of ordinary people on this planet who couldn’t care less about the United States. They spend days on end living their lives, going to work and eating and entertaining themselves, hardly thinking about Americans or the United States at all. Fancy that!

And I don’t think there’s a fixed American identity, at least not one that’s going to change just because we let lots of dark-skinned people come over the border. And Dick Cheney and David Addington have fucked up our constitutional system of government more than hordes of immigrants ever could.

It’s not that I don’t think people should come legally instead of illegally. It’s that I just can’t seem to get myself worried about it.

Xenophobia isn’t unique to Americans, by the way, or even to caucasians. For instance, Japan has long dealt with its own ethnic issues.

Someday every human being is going to be the color of coffee ice cream, and then we’ll find other stuff to fight about.

Anderson and GOP

Flipping through the channels, I see that the Republicans are having a debate on CNN. It’s being moderated by Anderson Cooper.

The idea of a gay man moderating a Republican presidential primary is just too bizarre for words. I wonder if the candidates know? I wonder if the viewers know?

Chorus Concert

My chorus, the Empire City Men’s Chorus (formerly the Gay Gotham Chorus), is performing its annual holiday concert next Friday night, December 7 (Pearl Harbor Day!). We’ll be performing at:

The Church of St. Paul & St. Andrew
263 West 86th Street at West End Avenue
8:00 p.m.
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We’ll be joined for one number by Barbara Walsh, who recently performed as Joanne (“Here’s to the ladies who lunch”) in John Doyle’s revival of “Company” on Broadway.

We’ll also be joined by the brass-playing members of the Lesbian & Gay Big Apple Corps, a.k.a. “the gay band.”

Oh my god — we rehearsed for the first time last night with the brass, and this one brass player was SO hot. He had glasses and a light-brown beard and wore a tight black t-shirt over his muscular arms. He was playing what looked like a tuba that stands on the ground — I’m not sure what it was. But several of us were talking about him after rehearsal.

And don’t make a joke about “asking to see his instrument” — too easy.

So come see us! Our holiday concert is typically our most highly-attended concert of the year.

And you can see a hot tuba-like-instrument player.

ROTK: Complete Recordings

“Lord of the Rings” movie fans, note: The Return of the King: The Complete Recordings was released last week. Four CDs of music, plus an audio DVD containing the same music in surround sound. This completes the Complete Recordings, a total of 10 CDs containing the complete score of all three films. Isn’t that insane?

I’ve got my copy, though I haven’t had a chance to listen to much of it yet (nor have I yet listened to even half of “The Two Towers”).

Here’s a review.

Also, the writer of the liner notes for all the complete recordings, Doug Adams (not this one, of course) is writing a book, The Music of the Lord of the Rings Films, due out next fall. And the book has a blog.

Emotional Weekend

This past weekend was a bit of an emotional roller coaster.

On Friday evening, I went to the memorial service for my fellow chorus member Devin, who died a few weeks ago of lymphoma at age 33.

The service was at the church where our chorus rehearses every week (although it wasn’t a religious service). There must have been at least 200 people there, and there were several terrific, heartbreaking eulogies. Our chorus sang two pieces, and let me tell you, it’s hard to keep it together when tears are pouring from your conductor’s eyes while he waves his arms. I’d never seen him cry before. It was… hard.

In a completely different vein, on Saturday night I teared up again but this was for a good occasion: I went to a same-sex wedding for the first time. This was for a friend of mine whom I met about seven years ago. He and his partner have been together since the summer of 2001 (when they were in their mid-20s), and they finally decided to tie the knot. It wasn’t a legal ceremony — they will do that later in Canada — but they wanted the big celebration to be in New York, since they live here. And they did sign some legal papers during the ceremony, in the presence of a lawyer.

The event was at the Prospect Park Picnic House in Park Slope. The program contained silhouette drawings of the two grooms. The grooms processed in to Cyndi Lauper’s “True Colors.” Someone sang an operatic rendition of “Simple Little Things” from 110 in the Shade. There were delicious hors d’oeuvres, and the main meal was served buffet style – a “comfort station” containing macaroni and cheese, sweet potatoes with marshmallows, salad, and something else that I can’t remember – and all that, too, was delicious.

The event was so wonderful and tasteful and I think my friend has a second career as a wedding planner if he wants it.

On Sunday afternoon we had a respite from all the emotion. We went to see an Off-Broadway play: Things We Want, starring Peter Dinklage, Paul Dano (the depressed mute teenager from “Little Miss Sunshine”), Josh Hamilton, and Zoe Kazan. We were in the front row of this small theater, pressed right up against the front of the stage, and we were therefore THISCLOSE to Josh Hamilton in his underwear. And Peter Dinklage, not in his underwear. And Paul Dano, who had his shirt off at one point and is completely skinny with not an OUNCE of body fat on him. We were close enough to see that his belly button is an outie, which always skeeves me out a bit (as do uncircumcised dicks, but that’s beside the point).

The play was okay – it was well acted, with great dialogue, but I didn’t buy the second act at all.

So that was my weekend.

This week I’m going to make two quiches to bring to my brother and his wife’s apartment for Thanksgiving. I’ve never baked a quiche before.

If real men don’t eat quiche, what does that say about someone who bakes quiche?

Anyway… wish me luck.

Stagehand Strike

Early last week, we optimistically bought tickets to August: Osage County through TDF for this Friday, thinking that the stagehand strike would be over by then. So much for that.

Even so — this is going to sound strange, but I felt a twinge of disappointment late last week when I read that the two sides were going to sit down for talks, and a bit of excitement when I read that the talks had failed. This has nothing to do with the real-world impact of the strike – stagehands, actors, restauranteurs, bartenders, and store owners are all hurting, and they deserve their livelihoods back. It’s more a feeling of curiosity on my part. The novelty of it. Disruptions of the normal routine are exciting, in a sense. I’m not sure what this says about my day-to-day life.

My odd feelings about the strike are also because I’m a news junkie. I’m a news junkie because I’m not just interested in what happens in the world; I’m interested in seeing how what happens in the world is covered. That’s why I’m an obituary geek and why I like newspaper front pages. I’m interested in seeing how things are covered day by day. I like that every day lately, the headline lead article on the Playbill website tells what day of the strike this is.

I know I shouldn’t feel this way about the strike. And if it were affecting me more personally, I wouldn’t. And I don’t really feel this way deep down. It’s just that it’s something different. And sometimes, something different can be bracing.

The Future of the Daily Show

I wonder about the future of “The Daily Show.”

I don’t mean because of the writers’ strike — hopefully that will end and the show will come back before, say, next summer’s presidential conventions.

What I wonder about is whether, if a Democrat wins the presidency, “The Daily Show” will be as popular in 2009 as it is right now.

The Bush administration, while it has ruined the country and the world, has been a boon to Jon Stewart. It’s not just that Bush is so idiotic and loathed that the headlines write themselves; it’s not just that Stewart’s audience is pretty liberal and that we love to see Bush and other Republicans get skewered. (I always laugh at Stewart’s fake Bush cackle, no matter how many times he does it.) The main reason Stewart’s popularity has grown in the last few years is because we feel so angry at what Bush has done, so aghast that he’s been able to get away with it, and so powerless to change anything about it — so outraged and depressed at the same time — that the only non-destructive outlet we have is laughter. We’ve needed Jon Stewart during the Bush years, in a deep psychological sense.

What happens after?

There was a telling moment on the show this past summer. Stewart did a sequence of Hillary Clinton jokes. This was before Obama and Edwards started getting more aggressive against her, before the media started picking up the “Hillary’s making missteps” narrative. Outrage against the Iraq “surge” was at its height, General Petraeus’s testimony was approaching, and we still felt pumped about there being a chance to turn the surge around — before Congress folded and apathy set in again. We were angry.

And Stewart did some Hillary Clinton jokes.

The audience reaction was tepid, at best. Stewart eventually had to tweak the audience.

I guess it’s partly that the jokes weren’t very funny, but it’s also that the audience wasn’t with Stewart. We wanted more cathartic comedic exasperation at the state of the world; we weren’t looking for anti-Hillary jokes.

Maybe it will be different if Hillary gets elected. She’ll hold power, she’ll be the president, so she’ll be a legitimate comedic target. (The powerful always get skewed.)

When Stewart made fun of Hillary that night, it almost seemed as if he was trying to remind us that he’s an equal-opportunity offender — warning us that we shouldn’t get too comfortable.

In Praise of Bob Herbert

Bob Herbert is underappreciated.

If you’re not a New York Times junkie like me, you probably don’t know who he is — he’s one of the paper’s seven or eight op-ed columnists. Others — Maureen Dowd, Tom Friedman, David Brooks, Paul Krugman — they’ve got buzz. Bob Herbert? More of a buzzkill. He writes largely about the (primarily black) disenfranchised among us — those in the inner cities, those who are poor, those without health insurance.

T.A. Franks in the Washington Monthly asks: Why is Bob Herbert boring?

His underlying problem turns out to be simple: he doesn’t write with his audience in mind…. If he’d overcome his indifference to “chatter” and elite opinion and instead try to attract and coopt it—in other words, think about who his audience is and what he wants it to do—he could be one of the most powerful liberal voices in the country.

Herbert’s writing isn’t usually flashy or sexy or witty, but he almost always makes great points. It’s too bad more people don’t read him.

Devin

A member of our chorus passed away a few weeks ago. He was 33 years old. He died of cancer.

He was sick for a year and a half. During that time, he got sick and went to the hospital, got better and left the hospital, and then got sick and went to the hospital again. During that entire time, I never visited him in the hospital. Not once. I deeply regret this. I kept intending to visit, but I “never got around to it.” I didn’t even know when he was nearing the end. During the announcements in the middle of rehearsal a few weeks ago, our conductor told us that Devin had passed away the night before. I had to leave the room as unobtrusively as possible because my eyes were welling up and they wouldn’t stop.

The last time I saw Devin was at a friend’s birthday party last year. It was at the end of October, so it was the same night as numerous Halloween parties, and he showed up in costume. He was dressed as a fairy “godfather” – he wore a light-blue fairy outfit, complete with wings, with black boots on his feet, a bowler hat on his head, and an unlit cigar in his mouth.

Our chorus is singing at a memorial service for him on Friday. We rehearsed the pieces last night, and a few former members joined us, as they will on Friday. It was nice to see them.

Afterwards, several of us went to the bar across the street, as some of the guys always do after rehearsal. It was my first time at the bar this fall – I just felt a need to hang out with some of my fellow singers. It was pretty somber. Not completely, but more somber than usual, and lots of talk of cancer and dying young.

I didn’t know Devin as well as some of the other guys in the group did. I didn’t really see him outside of rehearsal. Still, I didn’t sleep well last night. I kept drifting in and out of dreams about Devin and some of the other chorus members. I woke up several times.

Sometimes it’s not that death is sad, so much as that it’s profound. It’s hard for the human mind to contemplate an absence. An absence is, by nature, intangible. How do you register that? Especially when the presence who’s now absent was so young?

It’s not easy.